Winter Garden, Sheffield, UK
Doing PhD, to many people I know, they said it was like a headache. PhD stands for Permanently headed damage.
My viva exam is getting near. What are merits of doing PhD?
One thing for sure I've trained myself on many skills, academic, social, and managerial.
I have been coping with change management, anger management, hatred management, broken-heart management, emotional management, and appreciation management.
All and everyone says they are struggling.
But why are they so proud and happy after they've passed the viva?
I'm still waiting and waiting.
It's near and near.
Love is so difficult, complicated and confusing.
I just want to be someone, not only a stupid one who you make fun of.
I just want to be the one, not someone you know and look away.
Indeed, love is beautiful, warming up my heart.
But most of the time my heart is broken at last.
"The road not taken", such a beautiful phrase.
Now, I fear of taking every road lying ahead.
Shall I step in and lock myself in?
Last night I was sort of hopeless about my situation on the next day. I could really feel the stress that was pressing on me. I did not know what to do, just keep thinking the same old thing again and again. Something I had seen was like the last straw on a camel's back. I felt very down and sick. I tried to solve the problems in a couple of ways. I tried this and that and stopped each attempt abruptlyin the middle. Then the voice in my head just told me to do one thing. Let have a go and pray.
And it worked. My prayer was answered once again. Thanks Heavenly Father. I know you will never let me down, deeper than this. I should walk in a more careful way and be mindful. Don't ever give up. The voice in my head told me. Keep your faith and then you will see the clear blue sky. When everything seems right, it will be right, right to the end. Don't let it be wrong with your imagination and self-deception.
Winter Garden, Sheffield, UK
